Just Wish
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i am a 24-year-old woman from Iran. I moved away from my family to attend university, and for years my father has been spending more than half of his income just to support my education and living expenses in another city.
After the war and everything that has happened to our economy, even dreaming about a better future feels difficult. Every day has become a struggle.
Because of the environment I’m in, most of the people around me come from wealthy families. Sometimes it feels like I’m constantly comparing my life to theirs. I don’t have close female friends, and for reasons I still don’t understand, I often find myself being rejected by other girls.
I have a boyfriend who comes from a wealthy family. He loves me, and I love him too. But deep down, I know our financial backgrounds are completely different, and I fear that one day this relationship will end because of that. I don’t believe we will ever get married.
My father can no longer afford to support me, so I may have to leave the city where I study and return to my small hometown before I finish building the future I dreamed of.
Lately I stay awake until late every night. Tonight I feel completely exhausted. The pressure has become overwhelming, and I honestly feel like I’m reaching my limit.
Owning a decent car, something many people around me take for granted, has become one of my biggest dreams. I don’t have any savings or capital to start a business or create a better life for myself.
To be honest, I’ve almost lost hope. Tonight I’ve even found myself questioning my faith in God and whether there’s any justice waiting beyond this life.
Sometimes it feels as if some of us were born only to watch other people live the lives we wish we could have.
I know writing all of this here probably won’t change anything. But this is my last little bit of hope. Maybe this is just another shot in the dark… and maybe, somehow, it will become the miracle that changes my life. :)
After the war and everything that has happened to our economy, even dreaming about a better future feels difficult. Every day has become a struggle.
Because of the environment I’m in, most of the people around me come from wealthy families. Sometimes it feels like I’m constantly comparing my life to theirs. I don’t have close female friends, and for reasons I still don’t understand, I often find myself being rejected by other girls.
I have a boyfriend who comes from a wealthy family. He loves me, and I love him too. But deep down, I know our financial backgrounds are completely different, and I fear that one day this relationship will end because of that. I don’t believe we will ever get married.
My father can no longer afford to support me, so I may have to leave the city where I study and return to my small hometown before I finish building the future I dreamed of.
Lately I stay awake until late every night. Tonight I feel completely exhausted. The pressure has become overwhelming, and I honestly feel like I’m reaching my limit.
Owning a decent car, something many people around me take for granted, has become one of my biggest dreams. I don’t have any savings or capital to start a business or create a better life for myself.
To be honest, I’ve almost lost hope. Tonight I’ve even found myself questioning my faith in God and whether there’s any justice waiting beyond this life.
Sometimes it feels as if some of us were born only to watch other people live the lives we wish we could have.
I know writing all of this here probably won’t change anything. But this is my last little bit of hope. Maybe this is just another shot in the dark… and maybe, somehow, it will become the miracle that changes my life. :)
