House for a year

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Hello, my name is Ira, and I am 27 years old. I don’t even know how it happened, but today my deepest wish is to find a place where I can breathe freely, where I will have my own space, a house that can be rented for me. Sometimes it’s hard to say these words, but I feel like I’ve become stuck in a relationship where there is no place for me — it feels like being in prison, where I am not heard, not loved, not valued.

Everything changed when I came to Canada with my boyfriend due to the war in Ukraine. I’ve been here for two years now. We took out a car loan so that I could work in cleaning. It’s hard and exhausting work, and until I learn English, I won’t have better opportunities. But it was here, in Canada, that I truly saw the world and people differently. It’s like I woke up after a long sleep. I realized that I don’t belong in this relationship, that this is not my life. I don’t want to be in this situation anymore because I feel like I deserve more.

I really want to start a new life, to begin it on my own terms, in a new place where I will feel free and no longer dependent on anyone. But right now, I have nowhere to go. My finances don’t allow me to rent a house because I have to cover expenses for gas, credit, insurance, and food.

My biggest dream right now is to find a house for a year so that I can gather my strength, stabilize my finances, and give my family the opportunity to come for the summer because I miss them so much. They are my support, and without them, I feel so alone. My life has been a struggle since childhood, and it feels like this fight never ends. But I believe that change is possible.

I don’t know if anyone will read this, but a little bit of faith still remains in my heart. Thank you for listening. Now I live in Calgary.
House for a year