When I close my eyes I wish myself to be anywhere but here.

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I just wish to have some memories with my grandson on vacation slashing in the water. I’ve been so sick I stopped dreaming, I want my whole family to make a memory, so we can share more than a hospital room. I wish to see someplace like Hawaii and go to Disneyland. I’ve battled a hard life and worked hard but never shared a vacation with my two girls and grandson. Just normal things people do. I would pray my heart to last long enough to give my girls something good to hold onto. I want to share pictures of the 7 of us having fun. I have pictures of hospital stays, which in silent brakes me. I wanna vacation where people aren’t caring for me. I wanna laugh again, even if my body gives out. I ask God for it not to be on this note but a happy note. I’d be happiest if we could include my brother and sister, I don’t see my sister much since she moved 12 hours away. I don’t have many pictures to share because we all haven’t been on vacation together.
When I close my eyes I wish myself to be anywhere but here.