Chronic Pain + Nuerodivergerent Warrior wants to share an amazing experience with her children before being bedridden

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I am a mom of 4 boys with my youngest age 11 and oldest 17 (off to college in a year). When I was 15 years old, I broke my back with 80% cord compression. I had two major fusions by amazing neurosurgeons and I did fairly well until my pregnancies. Each pregnancy became more and more difficult with my final pregnancy ending with placenta accreta, 11 units of blood transfusions and a preemie. Until 6-7 years ago I was hanging in there despite the pain. But then things really went downhill. I visited multiple neurosurgeons and ended up with a spinal cord stimulator. It helped very minimally and I was told there was nothing else that could be done. I have to have surgery every 3 years to replace the battery. About a year ago, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and ADHD, things that really made a lot of sense to help me understand why I had been feeling so off-kilter for so long. Naturally, despite long letters from my psychiatrist, my insurance still isn't covering all my medications. During the past few years my kids have been expressing to my mom and my husband "I really miss when mom would do XXX" and its all things that have become impossible for me because of my physical constraints. My wish is to enjoy a once in a lifetime trip with my family that before my oldest goes off to college, and that they will be able to remember forever and might help to overcome the disappointments they have had to deal with when it comes to my "mom fails" . They are athletic and adventurous kids. They have been in spanish immersion for school since kindergarten. I know they would love a family trip out west where got to visit a few national parks, or a trip to Central or South America to practice their spanish. Every few months my neurosurgeons prescribe me steriod packs, which help significantly for about a week. And I'm 100% willing to be in extra pain during a trip to make this dream come true. Due to my medical issues and how much they cost, our family has no money to spare. Please help this mama who wants her boys to get to have an awesome family experience where they aren't constantly having to think about me. My husband and boys have been incredibly supportive, patient and just wonderful to try to make me not feel so guilty about the things they have had to miss out on.
Chronic Pain + Nuerodivergerent Warrior wants to share an amazing experience with her children before being bedridden