#csectionawarenessmonth

 



I’d be lying if I said this picture didn’t still trigger me at times 😭

I didn’t want to let this month go by and not share my feelings around it

That this is still a vulnerable space for me

It’s still hard for me at times to look at my scar

How I felt like less of a mom for giving birth 🤰 via c-section

All stories I told myself that weren’t true

We do that right. We story tell and we give our power away

I am still working on finding my power within my own self when it comes to looking at my body, and seeing my #csection scar

I still have moments where I cry or I get sad

I start to immediately smile though when I think about my husband holding me crying 😭 saying “honey when I look at your scar I think that was the door to our Amelia” ❤️ seriously every time I hear him say it I cry 😭. He’s right that’s exactly what it was @justin.jacaruso



 



I share this because I want other moms to know you’re not alone in these feelings

Your body didn’t fail you, I truly believe our babies choose their births, their souls choose everything and we go along for the ride, and for me that was my welcome to motherhood, let me SHAKE You & ROCK you to your core, so you get a picture of what motherhood is.

It breaks you and shapes you all at once



The tears that I used to cry minute by minute have now turned into more happy tears and smiles

Being grateful for my body that endured and did so much



For those that have been following my journey for a while you know I had a #csectionbirth with my first daughter Amelia & know in that moment I was devastated.

I had a “birth plan” and it went from birth tub unmedicated to hospital bright lights and 42 hours later having Amelia Rei via csection

Every birth is beautiful, every mama is a warrior, every one of us is broken and strengthened by our own birth experiences and I believe teaches us even more so how to be mothers to our babies that chose us for this human experience 🤍