Feelings and Desires for Future

I am wishing for truth about feelings, love and future about long term relationship and when they look at me they see marriage with romantic feelings, trust and attraction for me.

No past or third party situation that will get in the way of our relationship.

I want an actual plan, an actual desire for a future and some clarity or advice from my inner self, my higher power and God.

My wish is that I don't feel sick when I go to bed every night wondering why, after all this time, that I still feel some strong emotions for this person. I wish that once this clarity and truth comes out that I will know better as to what to do and will know how to let this person go for good. Unless the truth comes out and no third party can interfere. The competition for this person's love is non existent and they are ready to move forward with me and will no longer speak to this person.

I know inside way down deep I deserve better, but something has a hold on my heart. The hold is the un knowing, the space and time thats gone by with no answer. No conversation, just this dark black cloud of unfinished business that rests above my head even on the sunniest of days. I wish this could change, and I could be free. Free on the inside.