I wish for help getting back on my feet after an extremely tough year...

Date Published: 3/18/2025

This last year has been really hard on me, and I have little to no support system that's able to help. My 15 year old soul dog, Bear, passed away. He passed naturally at home with me, and although I'm so happy that I was able to be with him, it was very traumatic to watch my best friend die, and be unable to help. I have flashbacks to it everyday, and it's been 8 months. My sweet boy, my North Star. I sunk into a very dark place and there I've stayed. I've been so sad without him. He taught me so much about real, true love and acceptance, and the importance of slowing down. He taught me that the most beautiful parts of life are the most simple things, and that love is the most important aspect of my life. I've cried everyday since Dec 13th, 2023. Shortly after his passing, my vehicle broke down, which caused me to lose my job. This put me into an even worse spot in my life, including mental health wise. Therapy has not been very helpful because I have little to no foundation to stand on. My comfort (Bear) is gone, and the family that I do have is not able to contribute financially due to the inability to.

My wish is to be able to buy a used vehicle from Facebook Marketplace (I don't want anything fancy, just something reliable), so that I can get a good job, start leaving my house again, and move back to Arkansas to be with my family. I have a Dad, my Grandmother, and 3 teenage siblings there, and I need them now more than ever. I have no idea how to even begin the process of planning the move to another state, when I can't even drive to the grocery door down the street right now. The amount of good jobs available in walking distance from my house is basically non existent, so I'm barely making any money right now, often times I can't even get groceries and have missed meals many times. Everything is so hard right now. I want so badly to catch a break and for something good to happen.

I miss Bear, I want to make him proud of me and I want to find happiness again. I want to be proud of myself, too. I've been so close to giving up many times and don't know where to turn. All I need is a little bit of help getting back up so that I can soar. That is what I hope for at least, it is what I wish for more than anything. A chance to be happy again. Thank you for reading. <3
I wish for help getting back on my feet after an extremely tough year...