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My name is Serena, I’m Italian.
I’m here to ask for help. I’ve been spending my life working and paying wherever I can, but never could be enough. I’m feel exhausted and tired to keep going like this. I would love to live my life, without worrying what to pay for next.
When I was a teenager, I was working with my dad in a place he built as a dentist, as dental assistant and secretary. I was putting aside that money in a clay pot piggy bank but when the summer finish I found it empty. It was someone in my home, was taking away the money and I discovered when was too late.
Finishing go to school, I chose to become a pastry chef but my parents were not happy with my choice. I would have liked to keep studying, but I didn’t have the money to pay myself the college and I was not so good at studying.
After a while, my parents asked for help in that workplace, I knew well.
My father gave me a part of the company because he wanted, I would earn something. In that meantime I was working as well in that place. My mother was managing that place, but she had a gambling issue. Rather all my help, she was not accepting any advice.
I worked there for 4 years after school. Each month she was not able to pay my salary fully or any other people. I accumulated a lot of many that I never took. I started to do a second job because I had to pay the rent. I chose a bar because was close to that place and they were hiring people. For a long time, I worked in the bar from 6am until 4pm, then I was in that place working from 4pm until 10pm. It was not easy to manage that kind of life.
In the meantime, I should have taken that money for earning, yearly, but I never did because was already hard to pay the necessary things for her. She anyway told me not to worry because he would pay the necessary taxes. However, years later I found out she never paid them, and the government was taxing me for not doing so.
In Milan I worked with a double shift in more places, skipping my day off and keeping working, hoping I could earn more money to pay, but I was tired of, and I couldn’t make much.
I came to Dubai, renting my home in Sicily. With that money I paid the tax installments I should have, but when I received a tax of 70 thousand euros, the sum to pay became too high together with all the others I was already paying.
Right now, I must pay more than 100.000 thousand of euro in taxes.
The house is going to auction, it will be sold for 20% of the market value.
In Dubai I changed 3 companies. My first salary was 5thousand and I received the visa after 8 months. Naively I’ve been frauded when I changed my first company. Someone called me, saying they must confirm my details, or it would be an issue with my visa.
I had no idea how it worked and since I received my first visa after 8 months, I trusted it. After that call, I discovered they took 14 thousand from my credit card.
With the second company my salary was 6thousand but most of the money I was paying the installment on my credit card.
Right now, I have two credit cards of 24thousand each and I each month I spent all my salary to pay back the credit card, but I can never finish, cause it’s too much.
I’m asking for help because I feel I don’t have anymore a life. I can’t breathe and I feel so anxious each moment of my day.
I’m working most of my days, from 10 am until 12 am and when I must come back home, I need to stretch my eyes, because I have to drive with my electric scooter and is a long way.
I don’t sleep enough, and on my off day I just buy the food and sleep to don’t spend more money.
I lost my enthusiasm, my positivity. I’m tired of living like this. I’m not taking a holiday because I would have a break, I will not take the tips for that period, and I can’t afford to.
I honestly need some true break from my life and sometimes I ask myself if I should quit, cause I’m so exhausted to live without living.
I become more and more aware of how deeply down I feel. I'm ashamed of the situation. However, deep down I was wrong for wanting to help my parents, I was wrong for trusting the wrong people.
I never had my parents' support for my choices. I learned to manage myself, working hard to pay for all the studies I was able to afford. However, there are many that I was unable to attend because they were too expensive.
This is the first time I've asked for help. Any help would be great to get me breathing somehow.
I really appreciate your time reading and any support.
Thank you with all my heart.
I’m here to ask for help. I’ve been spending my life working and paying wherever I can, but never could be enough. I’m feel exhausted and tired to keep going like this. I would love to live my life, without worrying what to pay for next.
When I was a teenager, I was working with my dad in a place he built as a dentist, as dental assistant and secretary. I was putting aside that money in a clay pot piggy bank but when the summer finish I found it empty. It was someone in my home, was taking away the money and I discovered when was too late.
Finishing go to school, I chose to become a pastry chef but my parents were not happy with my choice. I would have liked to keep studying, but I didn’t have the money to pay myself the college and I was not so good at studying.
After a while, my parents asked for help in that workplace, I knew well.
My father gave me a part of the company because he wanted, I would earn something. In that meantime I was working as well in that place. My mother was managing that place, but she had a gambling issue. Rather all my help, she was not accepting any advice.
I worked there for 4 years after school. Each month she was not able to pay my salary fully or any other people. I accumulated a lot of many that I never took. I started to do a second job because I had to pay the rent. I chose a bar because was close to that place and they were hiring people. For a long time, I worked in the bar from 6am until 4pm, then I was in that place working from 4pm until 10pm. It was not easy to manage that kind of life.
In the meantime, I should have taken that money for earning, yearly, but I never did because was already hard to pay the necessary things for her. She anyway told me not to worry because he would pay the necessary taxes. However, years later I found out she never paid them, and the government was taxing me for not doing so.
In Milan I worked with a double shift in more places, skipping my day off and keeping working, hoping I could earn more money to pay, but I was tired of, and I couldn’t make much.
I came to Dubai, renting my home in Sicily. With that money I paid the tax installments I should have, but when I received a tax of 70 thousand euros, the sum to pay became too high together with all the others I was already paying.
Right now, I must pay more than 100.000 thousand of euro in taxes.
The house is going to auction, it will be sold for 20% of the market value.
In Dubai I changed 3 companies. My first salary was 5thousand and I received the visa after 8 months. Naively I’ve been frauded when I changed my first company. Someone called me, saying they must confirm my details, or it would be an issue with my visa.
I had no idea how it worked and since I received my first visa after 8 months, I trusted it. After that call, I discovered they took 14 thousand from my credit card.
With the second company my salary was 6thousand but most of the money I was paying the installment on my credit card.
Right now, I have two credit cards of 24thousand each and I each month I spent all my salary to pay back the credit card, but I can never finish, cause it’s too much.
I’m asking for help because I feel I don’t have anymore a life. I can’t breathe and I feel so anxious each moment of my day.
I’m working most of my days, from 10 am until 12 am and when I must come back home, I need to stretch my eyes, because I have to drive with my electric scooter and is a long way.
I don’t sleep enough, and on my off day I just buy the food and sleep to don’t spend more money.
I lost my enthusiasm, my positivity. I’m tired of living like this. I’m not taking a holiday because I would have a break, I will not take the tips for that period, and I can’t afford to.
I honestly need some true break from my life and sometimes I ask myself if I should quit, cause I’m so exhausted to live without living.
I become more and more aware of how deeply down I feel. I'm ashamed of the situation. However, deep down I was wrong for wanting to help my parents, I was wrong for trusting the wrong people.
I never had my parents' support for my choices. I learned to manage myself, working hard to pay for all the studies I was able to afford. However, there are many that I was unable to attend because they were too expensive.
This is the first time I've asked for help. Any help would be great to get me breathing somehow.
I really appreciate your time reading and any support.
Thank you with all my heart.
