WISH REDO: I wish to be a wealthy entrepreneur
Date Published: 9/20/2022
I wish to have, be given, win, inherit and create via my online and brick and mortar businesses more money and resources I could ever need and know how to use them.
The boring stuff: my life will greatly improve after the debt to my father's assisted living home is repaid, all his and my outstanding debts and my/our car. I would be able to take my dad off hospice and put him in a skilled nursing home for the remainder of his days. I would be able to still live alone and pay my rent for my manufactured rental home, utilities, car, insurances, responsibilities to upkeep and maintain them, repair and replace things; properly provide for my fur babies (2 bunnies) and myself. Get the Healthcare I need. Repay my father for all the last few years he's paid my rent, insurances and car so I could have these items.
I suffer from Bipolar type 2. I have ADHD and a meningioma. I'm 53. I took care of my parents for 25 years while pursuing college AND graduating with 2 AS degrees and one scholarship granted. On top of this, I did not have successful medical treatment for my bipolar and bipolar depression. But I still gave my parents THE BEST POSSIBLE care I could make happen.
I paid to replace their roof and sewer system that rotted, cracked and sank. I cashed in my 401k and took out loans. I eventually filed bankruptcy.
I was on disability with a $907/mo payment. No food stamps. I did and still do get Medicaid/MAWD. (I PAY FOR Mawd). I work full time and struggle to do so.
If I had the debts paid off and the investment money to START my drop shipping and affiliate marketing businesses AND had the one on one professional help to educate, show me, guide me, mentor, ..I would be able to provide for myself.
As things stand, not only am I losing my father, (mom passed 2004), I will not be able to support myself or keep my vehicle. No vehicle, no job. No job, no home etc.
I've even looked into selling my hair for money!
My brother is Chief of Staff PEO Soldier for the Army. He promised my dad-our dad, I'd remain living in our dad's home and he'd take care if me.
Instead, after we put our dad in assisted living, he sold my dad's home and gave me 8 months to find a place to live on $907/month.
My father used the proceeds from the sale of his home to support me. I worked job after job. I finally found medicine and was approved for medicine that worked-but its not a cure.
My brother abandoned my father and I after I found and was approved for the manufactured home I rent. We get 2 text messages a year.
His wife is VERY abusive to me. She lies about me, makes fun of me; her friends and family do too. She and my brother tore apart our family.
I did not then, nor do I now, possess the skills, experience and knowledge necessary to manage money, life etc.
If I could just get money to quit being an obstacle and learn how to support myself through drop shipping and affiliate marketing, I could give my father peace of mind so he can let go and pass away in a good way with somewhat of a good quality of life and I'd no longer worry or be afraid of being without....I would prove to myself, I can take proper care of myself and I don't have yo put myself into my grave trying to keep a roof over my head etc. I'd be prouder of myself that I did it on my own with the help of the proper professionals. I could prove to myself and be proud of myself that I can support myself, enjoy my life, fulfill my dreams/goals, get the medical and holistic care and upkeep therapies I need.
I never got to date during those 25 years of caregiving. I was abused and still gave high quality care to my abusers. I beat all the odds and did not become a statistic. I'm the first one to win a scholarship and I'm not the best student. I never got to go on vacations, have a day off, get married, have children...when I was of no more use to my brother, he abandoned me and broke his promises he never wanted to make.
I just want to have a much easier life. I want to have the basics provided for. I want to know how to use the resources I do have, learn the skills and gain the experience to manage relationships including those with money. I'm so scared. I make myself sick. I love my brother but he made his choice. I also told him I was done with his wife, her abuse, lies, condemnation, character assassination....I say these things to share the truth. It is NOT to hurt, shame, embarrass, or retaliate. I truly, as God is my witness , gave my all to my parents, my brother, my sister in law. I'm just asking to make the drop shipping money and affiliate marketing money investments and upkeep and support etc. To happen so I can succeed, empower myself, prove myself to myself and my brother. I matter. Dad matters. We are not disposable commodities. We are family.He left us. So, I'm all I have left. Please, I beg of you, help me. Help me be successful, wealthy, healthier, more educated, more skilled, more experienced, happier; to have stability, peace, ownership of my own car, my own land, my own home, my own money, my own businesses my own HAPPY customers, my independence; to be capable
The boring stuff: my life will greatly improve after the debt to my father's assisted living home is repaid, all his and my outstanding debts and my/our car. I would be able to take my dad off hospice and put him in a skilled nursing home for the remainder of his days. I would be able to still live alone and pay my rent for my manufactured rental home, utilities, car, insurances, responsibilities to upkeep and maintain them, repair and replace things; properly provide for my fur babies (2 bunnies) and myself. Get the Healthcare I need. Repay my father for all the last few years he's paid my rent, insurances and car so I could have these items.
I suffer from Bipolar type 2. I have ADHD and a meningioma. I'm 53. I took care of my parents for 25 years while pursuing college AND graduating with 2 AS degrees and one scholarship granted. On top of this, I did not have successful medical treatment for my bipolar and bipolar depression. But I still gave my parents THE BEST POSSIBLE care I could make happen.
I paid to replace their roof and sewer system that rotted, cracked and sank. I cashed in my 401k and took out loans. I eventually filed bankruptcy.
I was on disability with a $907/mo payment. No food stamps. I did and still do get Medicaid/MAWD. (I PAY FOR Mawd). I work full time and struggle to do so.
If I had the debts paid off and the investment money to START my drop shipping and affiliate marketing businesses AND had the one on one professional help to educate, show me, guide me, mentor, ..I would be able to provide for myself.
As things stand, not only am I losing my father, (mom passed 2004), I will not be able to support myself or keep my vehicle. No vehicle, no job. No job, no home etc.
I've even looked into selling my hair for money!
My brother is Chief of Staff PEO Soldier for the Army. He promised my dad-our dad, I'd remain living in our dad's home and he'd take care if me.
Instead, after we put our dad in assisted living, he sold my dad's home and gave me 8 months to find a place to live on $907/month.
My father used the proceeds from the sale of his home to support me. I worked job after job. I finally found medicine and was approved for medicine that worked-but its not a cure.
My brother abandoned my father and I after I found and was approved for the manufactured home I rent. We get 2 text messages a year.
His wife is VERY abusive to me. She lies about me, makes fun of me; her friends and family do too. She and my brother tore apart our family.
I did not then, nor do I now, possess the skills, experience and knowledge necessary to manage money, life etc.
If I could just get money to quit being an obstacle and learn how to support myself through drop shipping and affiliate marketing, I could give my father peace of mind so he can let go and pass away in a good way with somewhat of a good quality of life and I'd no longer worry or be afraid of being without....I would prove to myself, I can take proper care of myself and I don't have yo put myself into my grave trying to keep a roof over my head etc. I'd be prouder of myself that I did it on my own with the help of the proper professionals. I could prove to myself and be proud of myself that I can support myself, enjoy my life, fulfill my dreams/goals, get the medical and holistic care and upkeep therapies I need.
I never got to date during those 25 years of caregiving. I was abused and still gave high quality care to my abusers. I beat all the odds and did not become a statistic. I'm the first one to win a scholarship and I'm not the best student. I never got to go on vacations, have a day off, get married, have children...when I was of no more use to my brother, he abandoned me and broke his promises he never wanted to make.
I just want to have a much easier life. I want to have the basics provided for. I want to know how to use the resources I do have, learn the skills and gain the experience to manage relationships including those with money. I'm so scared. I make myself sick. I love my brother but he made his choice. I also told him I was done with his wife, her abuse, lies, condemnation, character assassination....I say these things to share the truth. It is NOT to hurt, shame, embarrass, or retaliate. I truly, as God is my witness , gave my all to my parents, my brother, my sister in law. I'm just asking to make the drop shipping money and affiliate marketing money investments and upkeep and support etc. To happen so I can succeed, empower myself, prove myself to myself and my brother. I matter. Dad matters. We are not disposable commodities. We are family.He left us. So, I'm all I have left. Please, I beg of you, help me. Help me be successful, wealthy, healthier, more educated, more skilled, more experienced, happier; to have stability, peace, ownership of my own car, my own land, my own home, my own money, my own businesses my own HAPPY customers, my independence; to be capable
